Monday, July 16, 2012

Just another day in paradise.

Happy Monday

Or is it??

I am so sleepy today. I can't seem to wake up for anything. Maybe it's the lack of sleep I've been getting the past couple weeks, I don't know.

But I gotta bunch of randomness running through my head so here we go.

I'm currently listening to "Don't you wanna stay" by Kelly Clarkson and Jason Aldean. Love this song. Oh, and I'm listening to L & L play "Elmo's world" on their guitar while they dance. I love it.

My dog, Bailey, is about to shipped out. He gets on my nerves every single second he's awake.

I'm in a funk lately and I don't know what I need to do to get out of it.

I want another tattoo- a lot.

I can't stand a lot of things or people lately..

I will go on Pinterest just to go to the Humor section so I can read the ecards. Those things are freaking hilarious and I can relate to so! many!

I did my first "photoshoot".. and by photoshoot I mean taking my cousin Karissa to the lake and shooting some pics of her pregnant belly. I'll post on that tomorrow.

Speaking of.. Karissa is going to be a mommy again! Nathan will be here next month and I couldn't be more excited!

I want my tv shows to start back up, NOW.

I started watching one of my favorite shows again.. Prison Break.

Magic Mike was so good. Not the story line. But the men?? YUMS!

My kids like to use the mega block Legos as bowls.

Sometimes I wish I worked full time.

I'm almost done with the 50 shades books. I have been stuck on the 3rd book for awhile because I just can't get into it like the other two. But.. Mr.Grey?? Will you marry me?!

I might be going up north again next week for a little vacation. I wanna take the boys to the beach again and pray for a better outcome. :)

Happy Monday!

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Thankful Thursday

Today I am thankful for..

* My little boys! They are for real my best friends. The only people in the world I can spend every second with & not wanna run for the hills.

* Pinterest. I have been feeling kinda blue lately and the humor section on Pinterest always makes me laugh and smile.

* My wifey (aka best friend). She is always there for me to talk to when needed!! :-)

* Text messaging. Cause it's just so much easier to say things via text. Right?

* Clean floors! Finally cleaned those bad boys today instead of just swiffering them. Now my feet don't stick to them when I walk through! lol.. Okay it wasn't THAT bad but really? The floor can only take so!much!watermelon. ya heard?

* The song "Everybody talks" by Neon Trees. It's bomb. And I love it.

* The rain. We have been getting a little rain the past couple days and we desperately need it. The grass is so dead and everything is so dry. I can do without the thunderstorms though. Ya hear that mother nature?!


* Did I mention my boys?!


Monday, July 2, 2012

saying goodbye. never easy.

We had to say goodbye to my aunt this weekend. It was hard. I feel so much sympathy and my heart breaks for her family. I wrote something to say at the funeral but I was such a sobbing mess I knew I couldn't get through it. So, I will post it here and if the family ever reads it then so be it.. If not, thats okay to. I wrote it for her. :-)

Trying to put into words what someone means to you is not easy. In fact it’s one of the hardest things I’ve done in awhile because it makes it more real that Aunt Linnie is gone. I would just like to say a few things about her that I will always remember and cherish forever. Aunt Linnie could ALWAYS be counted on for a laugh.. Even though sometimes it was at her own expense. Whether it be her always running late to something or walking around the house at 2 AM in her party dress. Aunt Linnie never took our laughs personal though- because that was the type of person she was. I got the pleasure of spending most of my summers as a child with her.. In her house of many colors. Teal living room, fuchsia bathroom, you name it. It was comfortable though, she made sure of it. She would tell me where Jeremiah and my brother would hide things from me, like her Ace of Base CD I fell in love with. She never got mad at me when I told her that the crab salad she was making smelled disgusting and looked even worse. And I’ll always love the fact that she called me honey. Aunt Linnie was one of the hardest working women I knew. She always made sure she could put a roof over her kids heads. To Jeremiah & Justin, I’m sorry she’s gone and want you both to know how much she meant to all of us. You can always count on the family to pick you up when you’re feeling down. To her granddaughters, if you ever need anyone to tell you some stories, you can count on me. I’ll tell you what I know. So to Aunt Linnie, go put on your party dress, dance with the angels and know that you will forever be in my heart and I will love you always.

Besides being up north for the service I got to spend time with my family that I don't get to see often. It was nice. I was away from my boys for three days and that was hard but I got through it- and so did they. :-)

I was able to just relax, not worry about what time it was for lunch, I didn't have to cut up 5lbs of fruit a day, clean shitty diapers (though they made up for it when I got home!) wipe runny noses or worry if I was making anyone happy. I just got to be there, be me. I'm very grateful for the break because I think it's what I needed.

Despite being there for sad reasons I left happy.

Back to the grind tomorrow. I've had way to many days off from "the real world".. back to the gym, back to work, back to schedules..

It's the "back to" week.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

not cool, mother nature..

quite literally..

It is not cool. In fact, it's going to be 103 degrees today.

I am not one for heat. Never have been. I hate being hot. I hate being sweaty. It makes me miserable and cranky. I love my seasons don't get me wrong but I have to have the ability to be cool if I want.

And I'm not.

Why you ask??

Because my air is broken. It has been broken for one week. One week of pure torture (so to speak..). The air conditioner fixer guy has been here two times. Last night we thought it was actually fixed though when he left. And now? I'm just not sure.

I don't know if it's because it's 3 million degrees outside or if it just hasn't caught up from being almost 90 in my house yesterday.

I wanna call the guy back but I don't wanna sound like a pain. I'm not the only person would cooling issues.


I hate heat.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012


Lots of changes happened around here so let's get to it.

L & L turned TWO!
Can you believe it? My little babies, my best friends, my hearts, have graced me (and everyone!) with their presence for two years. I have been the luckiest girl in the world to be their mama. I thank God every day for choosing me to be their mama.

L & L are binky free!
I was bound and determined to get them off their binks by the time they turned two. So of course I waited til the week before their birthday. It was a rough week but we got through it and now they are binky free!

We moved!
This whole year I was bound and determined that we would move out of our little two bedroom home. We needed space! Um, hello? Two toddlers. No bath tub. No yard. It was only a matter of time before I really lost my mind! Well, timing was finally right and a house basically fell into our lap. It's not huge by any means but it has all the things we wanted. A yard. A bathtub. 3 bedrooms. More space. Since we moved in almost a month ago, I know L & L are so much happier. This was the right decision for sure.

So much stuff has been going on since I've taken a blogging hiatus and so much stuff that I wanna talk about but for now I will just post this. I don't even remember all the stuff I knew I wanted to blog about.

On a last note, I wanna say a prayer for my Aunt.

Lord please provide peace & comfort for my Linnie. Her fight is still going strong but I'm not sure how much fight she has left. Please take away her pain. Please give her sons and granddaughtes peace as they face what might be her final days. Please look after our whole family. In Jesus name.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

I feel it coming..

I feel it.

It's coming.


I've gone through phases my whole life pretty much when I become obsessed with something. Not like a stalker or anything. But with things. Like?

When I was 8, it was the Power Rangers. I couldn't get enough of them. (Yes, I just admitted that)

When I was 10, it was the Mighty Ducks & 3 Ninjas. (Oh, it gets much.much.worse.)

When I was 13, it was the Backstreet Boys. Boy bands in general I guess you could say. Bop Magazines, Tiger Beat, etc. My walls were covered in posters.

When I was 14ish my brother got me addicted to wrestling. So in turn? I obsessed for my favorite wrestlers. Like, Jeff Hardy. My God. Boy was handsome.

As I grow up I go through my phases you get the point??

Well, in 2008 I became obsessed with a little thing called "Twilight"

That obsession has never left me. I still read the books, I still watch the movies. I love it.

But yesterday? I started reading "The Hunger Games".. and I feel it coming. I feel the obsession rearing it's dity little head. If not, I wouldn't have stayed up til midnight last night finishing the damned book.

I hear theres a movie coming out for it which will in turn make me more obsessed.

Husband already knows its coming. He asked me this morning where I was going after the gym because I think he knew I was gonna go fetch the second book. And I was. Except they didn't have it.

I'm wigging out. I need to read it. Like now.

But, I'll wait and go try another store tomorrow. Maybe this obsession won't be as bad.

Doubt it though.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Happy Birthday, brother.

I'm not sure if I have written about my brother before. It's hard to sometimes because I'm such an emotional person that every time I would start I would be a blubbering mess.

But today is special. Today he would have been 32 years old.

Words can not describe how much I miss him. I want so badly for Leon & Logan to know him. My brother would have made the absolute best uncle ever. I will make sure that they know of him and about him. I will make sure to tell them about his likes, dislikes, how he would curse like a sailor, his jokes, and what an incredible person he was.

I have said this before but I AM the person I am today because of HIM. Growing up was so much easier with him there with me. He was my best friend. I have never met another person as special as he is.

I loved watching wrestling with him, playing online, watching TV & movies, playing Uno, building Legos, etc...

He was cheated in life.

I know God has a plan for everyone. But I can only ask again & again.

Why him?

Why did HE have to be the one that only got to live 21 years?

I know that I'll never have the answers to those questions and it doesn't do any good to dwell on the past, so to speak. I'm not the "Oh I lost my brother, feel sorry for me" type of girl. I am..

I had the greatest brother in the world and my life is better because of him, type of girl.

And that's how I will honor him. By all the good things he did in his life, not that dumb ass disease that claims the life of so many.

F YOU, Muscular Dystrophy. One day there will be a cure to that piece of shit disease and people won't have to suffer from it.

BUT.. back to my brother.

If you had the pleasure of knowing Steven Ray Douglas, your life has been touched in a very special way. If you never got the chance to meet him, I'm sorry. I'm sorry my husband didn't get to meet him, or my kids, or some of my friends. But they know (and will know) through me how great he was.

My aunt said today, "He was wise beyond his years.." and she's right. He was.

I love you, brother. And miss you with every ounce of my being.

Happy Birthday.